Jordan's Sister Album

Artist(s): Kendall Payne

Cover Art

Kendall Payne Jordan's Sister Cover Art

Tracklist

Closer to Myself

length: 3:49

Digging deep, I feel my conscience burn
I need to know who and what I am
This hunger jolts me from complacency
Rocks me, and makes me meet myself

Jacob walked a limp to remind him
of the greater gift of the greater one
When I fell, I fell to my own resources
How can I carry your truths if I can't even crawl to you?

I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself

Paint me in a different light
Shed me another coat of skin
Mark me with ash until I'm clean again
Cause I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired
I know I can love you, I know that I can

I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself

I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself

And I want to feel something sweeter than this sin
Cover me in leaves and roll me over again
Cause I've been everybody else, now I want to be
something closer to myself

Supermodels

length: 3:49
One more time saying goodbye to love.
And wondering why, so I only
Hope that I'm learning to make the right choices.
I keep hearin' voices sayin'...

I'll be alright; it's just another heartbreak baby.
I'll be alright, soon as I forget your face.
I'll be alright; I'll just write another love song.
I'll be alright; Lord, just get me through the night.

Some hearts get so used to feelin' this way,
But that's not for me.
Oh, I only know things do happen for all the right reasons.
That's why I'm believin' ...

I'll be alright; it's just another heartbreak baby.
I'll be alright, soon as I forget your face.
I'll be alright; I'll just write another love song.
I'll be alright; Lord, just get me through the night.

Can't say we didn't try to make it last.
How we tried!
Once the feelin' changes, it's just no use.
'Cause love just turns into lies.

Oh, my love is a love that you'll feel forever.
So don't be afraid.

I'll be alright; it's just another heartbreak baby.
I'll be alright, I'll be alright, I'll be alright.

I'll be alright; it's just another heartbreak baby.
I'll be alright, soon I'll forget your face.
I'll be alright; yeah, I'll write another love song.
I'll be alright, ooh, ooh, yeah.

I'll be alright, I'll be alright, I'll be alright....

Wonderland

length: 3:42
Hey, Alice are you completely
Satisfied with Wonderland
And all it's wonder?
Cause if you're not, you know I
Heard that they're handing out a
money-back guarantee at the door.

Going blind to the pain,
Going deaf to the sight,
Going down to the cry,
Of the innocent life.

I read the paper,
And I drank all the juice
In my refridgerator, now I'm
Starved for knowledge,
Thirsty for the truth.
And in the pages I could
Sense all the longing in the world
I close my eyes, cause I'm longing too.

Going blind to the pain,
Going deaf to the sight,
Going down to the cry,
Of the innocent life.

Who knows your name,
anymore, anymore?
I'll say your name,
forever more, forever more.

Blind to the pain,
Going deaf to the sight,
Going down to the cry,
Of the innocent life,
Of the innocent life.

Hollywood

length: 4:37
40 days in Hollywood 40 nights in hell
How's life in your comfort zone?
Out here on sacred ground I'm doing swell
The new word is I'm crazy could have told you that before
But if you've got the guts to join me leave your sandals at the door
Because there's no turning back, no wasting time
No giving up on what I know is mine
No way I'm stopping not a chance I'm backing down
I've come to fight for mercy and take this angel town

I hear it so clear it pounds upon my heart
Who will give ear, and sacrifice to start
Am I alone? If so, it is well with me
Do you know that the truth will set you free

40 days in Hollywood, 40 nights in Hell
Sweet seduction plagues the streets I know now why she fell
But there's no time for distractions and I will not close my eyes
I'm hunting for the hurting, desperate in their cries

Honest

length: 4:14
Boy, know your place
Lies do not become us
Real is more attractive than a slick and polished mask
Girl, dig down deep
I know there's more between us
There's bound to be a question
You're just dying for me to ask

If you can be honest
I can be too
If you'll take the first step
I'll follow you through
But no one wants to bleed
No one wants to hide
No one wants to hurt alone inside

Child, don't close your eyes
The truth contains much beauty
And though it scars your soul
It can heal the wounds it makes
You've been deceived to think
That pain is to be dreaded
And you've got nothing left
It'll give more than it takes

If you can't find a peace
I'll help find it for you
I don't know how
But one thing that's sure
Is I won't leave you now

If you can be honest
I can be too
If you take the first step
I'll follow you through
No one wants to bleed
No one wants to hide
No one wants to hurt alone inside

The Second Day

length: 3:27
I know some things never change
but this can't be one of them.
and i don't think i can stand it
any longer...

(chorus)
Are you scared?
Are you scared?
Are you scared?
'cause if your scared
you're not alone
I once thought i was brave---
but i can't stop crying

sometimes i think im going crazy
But i am waiting patiently
though i fear it will all be in vain

It's Not the Time

length: 3:30
Chorus
It's not the time, it's not the place I am afraid (Repeat 3x)

They keep telling me, I'm not alone
They're all standing by me, but I am not my own
This thing is growing like a cancer I must kill
I am so confused, I don't know what I feel

I refuse to believe this is a child
It's not a person yet it takes quite a while
And guilt is great on my shoulders tonight
Could someone please tell me what is wrong and what is right
What is wrong and what is right, what is wrong and what is right

But I know it's life, I can't deny that it's life
Oh is it life? Can I deny this its life? I am afraid

On My Bones

length: 5:06
What these years have brought me
What these years have taught me
Heartache and fame
A chance to change
A Hope to be stronger
That beauty can smolder
A stage and a curtain
That nothing's for certain
Oh these years have been hard on my bones

What this world has brought me
What this world has taught me
Senseless spinning
Never tie instead of winning
Ice cream for licking
The clock's always ticking
No one is free
Someone must have a key
Oh this world has been hard on my bones
All this time
I'd been seeking my own
Oh this road has been hard on my bones

What this love has brought me
What this love has taught me
Patience in battle
Who's in the saddle?
Joy and dispair
That I really do care
Uncertain desire
The risk going higher
Yeah this love has been hard on my bones

What this God has brought me
What this God has taught me
Passion and grace
How to stand in one space
Laughing at lillies
What truly fufils me
Death on a cross
It was I that was lost
Oh this God has been life to these bones
Oh this God has been life to my bones
Yes this God has been life to my bones

Modern Day Moses

length: 5:38
a modern day moses, waking the streets
with shouts of glory, blistered feet
hes met the maker, hes met the reason hes alive
and hes on fire inside

a modern day mother, living in the slums
feeding the hungrey, making sure the race gets run,
always asking if we fought with steady feet
she fights on her knees

let my people go

a modern day martin in a world of civil words exchange
but dreaming bigger, he thinks maybe he could make a change
hes heard the stories, he wants some of his own
and hes not alone.

(bridge)
the time is not the moments here, walk in faith or stand in fear
change the course of history, did you ever think
no one ever though --- who would have believed?

let my people go

a modern day me what have i become, what can i be?
if there is greatness out there to be acieved
i want to be more than someone who just passes through this lige
i want to stand up for what is right

Perfect by Thursday

length: 3:41
Good week I've got
Gonna see him once again
Been working out, reading up
Be all smart and slim
Who'd knew I'd be this anxious?
Who'd have guessed this horrid fate?
All I know is I
Have to be perfect by Thursday
Perfect by Thursday

I rarely get to see him
And his name is all I know
He smiles like a king
And that's all he'd dare to show
I'm faithfully attending
My motive almost pure
Reckless in my thinking
But it's his that I'm not sure

Perfect by Thursday
I'm planning the evening
I know what I'm wearing
And what I'll be singing
Perfect by Thursday

One day left
And it's not looking very good
I haven't seen much progress
To perfection like I should
But now I cannot quit
Because today could be the day
That all the effort
All the work decides to finally pay

And then you will fall in love
I smile when you walk by
I laugh even louder
You don't even bother

I hold every memory
As sweet as a lemon
As loose as a fire

So now he's on the TV screen
He's catching for some man
Moved away and left me here
I don't understand
But I'm convinced that he'll be back
When I do least expect
Despite my opposition
I fear that I am correct

Perfect by Thursday
I'm sprinting to make it
If I have to fake it
You know I can take it

Formerly Known As

length: 5:36
I'll tame this lion of flesh before the night is over
My love will not let me rest until my mind is sober
Reputations from my past chained so tight
You break free you break fast on my decision tonight

Formerly known as nothing and and no one
Formerly known as lost

I've been sold to lies I've been told by former generations
Who tell me what's worth having a hold on for cheap sensationss
But you ask me at this moment who I say I am
A new creation they don't have to understand

I will not be bound by what they tell me I can be
I will not stay silent I will speak my liberty

Never Leave

length: 4:29
In the midst of my darkest hour you see my tear-stained face
This broken form that no longer feels power with no apparent place
But even when this world has turned her back on me
When it's cold where it once had burned
When my thoughts are frightening

You will never leave me

When I fail at living and loving when I fail you Lord
I want things that I know very well I cannot afford
When I feel like I have no purpose except to live and die
Or all they tell me is that I'm worthless why even try

(Bridge)
I cannot be sure of my love for you
But in the midst of my doubt...you are true

Fatherless at 14

length: 3:50
The winds came by
And they carried me away
At least that's what your mama said she'd say
Of course I knew that you would never believe
But, baby, sometimes even big girls are allowed to weep
Oh, Brenda Jean
My peanut butter queen
Innocent and bright
Don't think of me as mean
Sweet Brenda Jean
For all you have not seen
You know I hate to leave you
Fatherless at fourteen
I'm sure you think
I've left you alone
Torn apart our happy home
But, love, I never planned it this way
Never this soon
And never this day
Oh, Brenda Jean
My peanut butter queen
Innocent and bright
Don't think of me as mean
Sweet Brenda Jean
For all you have not seen
You know I hate to leave you
Fatherless at fourteen
Heaven's quite a sight to see
I'm sure you'll be here too
And though it's beautiful, my dear
It can't compare to you
Compare to you
Oh, Brenda Jean
My peanut butter queen
Innocent and bright
Don't you think of me as mean
Sweet Brenda Jean
For all you have not seen
You know I hate to leave you
Fatherless at fourteen