Paper Skin Album

Artist(s): Kendall Payne

Cover Art

Kendall Payne Paper Skin Cover Art

Tracklist

Not Afraid to Be Me

length: 3:23

I’ve got a new way of living now a little less of a lot A little more of nothing Thought you might have seen the change in me Little quicker to listen little slower to speak I was wrong when I said I was strong I am weak and I need All that you have to give I cannot keep the voices quiet inside Hear them sing hear the scream, at least I know I’m alive Now I am meeting myself and I am liking what I see I am not afraid anymore Not afraid to be bored Not afraid to be me Every battle leads to another war Every day I’m reminded of what I’m fighting for It’s never easy and it’s never the same But it’s worth all I’ve got and so I’ll give it again Now I don’t know why, I don’t know why But it makes me want to cry, cry I am meeting myself and I am ready to see Truth can break our heart that is when it will start To set us free

I Will Show You Love

length: 3:53

I will show you love like I've never loved before
I will go the distance and back for more if you just say the word
'Cause you will come alive again
Call the trying times your friend
Pain that you have suffered through
Never get the best of you
You will hope in something
Won't depend on how you feel
When you call my name, then I will answer, answer
Cause I am on your side
Though the wind and waves
Beat against your faith
You were on my mind
When the world was made
Trust in me my child,
Trust in me my child
Walk out on the water
You have no control
Scared of every failure
Sacrifice your soul, please let that go
Cause you have climbed an uphill road
You have worn a heavy load
You have cried through endless nights
Nearly giving up the fight
Watch your dreams like fallen stars
Heartache made you who you are
Looking back you see that I've always been there
Cause I am on your side
Though the wind and waves
Beat against your faith
You were on my mind
When the world was made
Trust in me my child,
Trust in me my child
Where you gonna hide, where you gonna hide from me?
Where you gonna go, where you gonna go that I can't see?
Cause I have heard your cry
And it breaks my heart, for I love you so
I will never lie
This is not the end
There is still a hope
Cause I am on your side
Though the wind and waves
Beat against your faith
You were on my mind
When the world was made
Trust in me my child,
Trust in me my child
Thanks to T. Butcher for these lyrics

One More Try

length: 5:22

So much deeper than the oceans is the heart of man So much higher than the mountains Are the things that I don’t understand Like why I’m crying over someone who will never give a damn We have boarded up the basement for the storm has found its prey I have bottled my emotions and saved them for a rainy day Now I’ll drink the bitter poison of a love that’s been delayed Since You’ve been gone, I can’t fight it I can’t fight it I’ve tried for too long I can’t hide it I can’t hide it anymore This has called for desperate measures We have left our pride behind We are aging with the hours of this superficial life And I refuse to be a failure, I have to give it one more try But I doubt that you are listening and I doubt that you are moved I have doubted every step along this long and darkened journey But I have never doubted you Now the longing has awoken and I don’t know what to do

Lines

length: 5:10

Gather along the lines, Gather along the lines. You’ll be safe inside so gather along the lines No one has to know as long as you don’t smoke those cigarettes You can keep your heart of stone and say you forgive but you don’t ever forget We can’t keep this up much longer, Grace is driving the hardest bargain The perfect world we have construced keeps more people out than lets them come in So let it shine if you’ve got any light left Let it rise and sing as loud as you can get We’ve got to live, we’ve got to laugh, we’ve got to love We’ve got to learn to breath outside the lines We got to learn to be outside the lines Gather along the lines Gather along the lines Keep your prejudice and pride Just gather along the lines Everyone will think that you are so important to the Lord But never bend you knee oh that wasted time you can’t seem to afford We were caught inside the bubble, some sense of family some sense we belonged And when we pleased them they were happy but God forbid that we should ever do wrong
I don’t think he’s threatened when we ask questions when we have doubts and disbelief I don’t think he’s angry when we are human that’s what he made us to be

Fail

length: 3:58

I am not a perfect girl, nor are you a perfect man But we have found each other here inside this wild and crazy world And somehow make a perfect match You bring out the worst in me but it’s the side I need to see And through the conflicts and the difference and damage done We are strong and still are one You will fail me, you will fail me again and again and again And I will fail you, I will fail you again and again and again Again and again and again But we will learn to love in spite of failure Yes we will learn to love because of failure And we will stay together We are broken human fools, we are selfish, we are cruel But there is hope for the exception to someday become the rule Let it start with me, let it start with you

Small

length: 3:31
Are you lonely for a friend? Are you lonely for a fantasy?
Do you feel like talking back at me or would you like it quiet now?
Well its hard to understand, what with all my inexperience
You say I've lost my innocence, but I haven't missed it if it's gone
Would you kindly take my hand feel it pulsing with complexity
The days are dawning dark on me since you been round you brought me down to your size

You're so small no one can fit inside your world

And it kinda makes me mad, but it mostly makes me sad for you
The hoops that you keep jumping through will trip you up or break you down
When you find yourself alone when they've all betrayed and broke your trust
You'll see the truth inside of us was always there, just you were scared to believe

And you like it, you like it that way

And you want for me to hurt just like you have hurt for countless years
With no one there to catch your tears, it is justified in your mind
I am sorry for your chains, but I will not wear them as my own
From here I think we'll walk alone but I doubt you'll find your peace of mind when I'm gone

Belonging

length: 4:17

When you’ve been wounded, deeply wounded by a friend You wonder when, if ever, you will trust again When you’ve been broken, deeply broken by a man You wonder when, if ever, you will love again Truth be told I’m not quite sure when things went right But the darkest tunnel always has a distant light And I’ve arrived, yes I’ve arrived and right on time You were there to greet me arms stretched open wide You were there to meet me on the other side Now I believe in something it’s been a long time coming It may not mean that much to you but it means all the world to me I’m belonging somewhere it took me time to get here But now that I’ve become a part of you I never want to leave When you’ve been hurting, deeply hurting all alone You wonder when, if ever, you will find a home When you’ve been searching, endless searching for the truth You wonder when, if ever, it will search for you You wonder if someone will ever search for you

Touch

length: 5:41
Don't touch me, Don't touch me there (2x)
I am bare and he is staring, we are trapped and caged like animals
I am small it isn't fitting. I am screaming but no one's listening
Don't touch me, Don't touch me there

I forgot what it feels like to feel safe, I forgot what it feels like to feel brave
A shattered soul never heals, this heart of flesh has turned to steal
I've forgotten how to feel

He liked her, he liked her that way
He broke her she has never been the same
Can you imagine? Can you fathom such a place where evil spreads it's seed?
It's upon us, It's beneath us, It's up to us to do something
He liked her, he liked her that way...

Listen little children to the story of a girl who found her knight and shining armor
When he saved her from the dragon he was strong and not afraid that there was
Smoke and there was fire and they lived happily ever after in his castle far away
Listen little children to the story of a girl

Back to Normal

length: 4:18


Such a lovely day to carry on your shoulders It turned from blue to grey and you seem so much older But its worth all the money in the world to find a way back to normal If there’s such a place The doctor called your name and things became so sober I suppose the price we’ll pay will be worth it when it’s over But it takes every effort to believe in the unseen when you see clearly That thing’s are not okay Well I know you are frightened, and I know you are angry And I know you tired of the unknown But I am beside you, and I will remind you That you don’t have to go it alone Seems a tailor made sickness for your sins dear If you planned your life away we never would be standing here But with an impending bitter end You have learned the lesson how The sweet is in the now Well I know you are frightened, and I know you are angry And I know you tired of the unknown But I am beside you, and I will remind you That you don’t have to go it alone Alone, Alone, We are not alone, Alone, Alone, Never, Not alone Th
ere are no guarantees, no promise they can make us Our faith’s a fighting seed planted deep in desperate trust I will take every moment I can get And won’t regret I share your name To Love is worth the pain

Daddy

length: 4:38

How long have I been dreaming? Who forgot to wake, to wake me up?
I know it sounds crazy but daddy now I think I’m in love
Cause when he steps in the room my heart begins to pound
You said, “Never settle,” you promised there was one out there for me
It’s true, I might have doubted but he’s standing here and now *, now* I believe
Yes, I know you’ll be proud of the man that chose me
It’s elementary to the wise, for the fool in full disguise
Beggars bow and poets kneel, and as for me… it’s finally real
I will always love you and I will always be your little girl
None could come between us, you’ll forever be the first man in my world
But when he smiles I can see how much he reminds me of you
A man of faith, a man of strength, who loves me like you do
*It’s elementary to the wise, for the fool in full disguise
Beggars bow and poets kneel, and as for me… it’s finally real*
How long have I been sleeping? Who forgot to wake, to wake me up?
Daddy, he’s amazing, he’s everything that I’ve been dreaming of
And now he has become my very best friend…
*It’s elementary to the wise, for the fool in full disguise
Beggars bow and poets kneel, and as for me… it’s finally real*
*It's all the time I've spent in tears. Worth the heartace, worth the fears. To stand beside him on this day after you give me away.*
Thanks to kaylee for these lyrics

Burning Embers

length: 3:40


Were we ready, who’s to say the answer?
Who is ever ready for these things?
No one could prepare us for the laughter
No one could prepare us for the pain
You feel like burning embers
You feel like coming home
You feel like my forever
That’s all I have to know
Every night I ask for your forgiveness
In grown up skin I still act like a child
I can make believe that I am flawless
You’re close enough to see the cracks I hide
You have caused me tears of joy relentless
*Cannot now imagine life without
I owe you more than humble words could confess
I love you more than I even know how
You feel like burning embers
You feel like coming home
You feel like my forever
That's all i have to know
You feel like Christmas morning
You feel like summer rain
You feel like holy waters
That wash away my stains
You feel like children singing
You feel like midnight calm
You feel like breathing deeply
Until the storm is gone
You feel like burning embers
You feel like coming home
Want to feel this way forever
Thats all i have to know
Thanks to Shannon for these lyrics

Paper Skin

length: 3:57

Don’t let your life slip through the cracks in your hand
If you hold on tight then you might stand a chance
Don’t be yourself if you’re not someone you like
There’s hope for change in anyone’s life
The paper skin I’m living in it tells the truth, it proves I’m broken
The paper skin, so frail so thin and every touch can tear me open
La la la la la la la la, la La la la la la
Don’t make your love suffer insecurities
Trade the baggage of self to set another one free
Don’t dream out loud you never know who might hear
Delight in bringing you down and fill your head with their fears
On paper skin words won’t rescind they sink too deep and slice me open
In paper skin I never mend it bends me back until I’m broken
La la la la la la la la la, La la la la la la
the paper skin I'm living in, it tells the truth it proves i'm broken
This paper skin so frail so thin and every touch can tear me open
la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
la la la la la la la la la
Thanks to Jessica Geiger for these lyrics
Thanks to hayleyk8 for these lyrics