Love & Rockets, Volume 1: The Transformation Album

Artist(s): Murs

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Murs Love & Rockets, Volume 1: The Transformation Cover Art

Tracklist

Epic Salutations

length: 3:12

Epic salutations
To all around the nation
Engaging in this form of energetic transformation
Hop on communication
The vibe we're sending out
To all who thought the real was lost and had to live in doubt
I tried to finish out
I rarely replicate
Represented, reproduce my records at respected rates
Quality, quantity, qualified sonically
To coalite the classic catalog for the colony
Something like a pharmacy
Hardest dope I'm pushing out
This is something heavy for the stoners getting smoked out
Loc'd out, psycho, nitro-glycerin
Audio insulin for all of y'all that's listening
And you can listen in
While I'm tripping out
I'm Heaven bound, but I think I found a different route
A couple par secs off of the main road
If you don't open up your mind then you can't go
I travel rainbows
Red, orange, yellow, green
Blue, indigo, violet, brightest lights you ever seen
Selassie of the posse
Making wine out of Rossi
Most high over money, Ted Dibiase
I take a million dollars
And gather all the scholars
To make a rocket ship out of old school Impalas
Ghetto interstellar west coast Cinderella
She riding shot gun and she rolling something hella
She passes it to me but I don't smoke is what I tell her
While I'm slanging moon rocks to these alien fellas
We 5,965 million
Miles away from Mars, among the stars, but I'm chilling
Laps around the sun, fingers rapped around a gun
And I'm shooting solar flares at your passengers for fun
That's how we have a good time on my planet
But you never came to visit, you didn't understand it
Take the boy out the hood, not the hood out of the rocket man
Trying to make the most out of this galaxy they lock me in
They can not box me in, I've traveled light years
Cartridges of courage cause we loaded up to fight fear
We might not win, but we never lose
With us or against us, you defenseless so you better choose
It's love or rockets dude
I use my rocket fuel to travel through the infinite and this is what I brought to you
Hardcore rap about nothing at all
Just some laser beams and quasars stuck in a jar
And this is all I've come up with so far
Living a lifetime on Earth and looking up at the stars

Remember 2 Forget

length: 3:56
So I don't know,
It's like you ever wish you had a-a-amnesia, amnesia
You know like, you could forget who ever it was that,
Ruined it for everyone else,
That one person if you could just forget them
Like you would have happier life
Remember

I keep forgetting to remember to forget
All the lies and all the bullshit
All the reasons that we had to call it quits
Pieces to our puzzle that never seemed to fit
Started out fast and ended so quick
For weeks on end I was so sick,
So the next time I start to reminisce
Remind me to remember to forget

Last night I sat down to cry, over you
Then I stopped and asked myself why?
Over you? I snapped out of it and got on with my day 'cause
My life been a lot better since the break up
You was only bringing me down
It was nothing but drama when I bring you around
All that attitude, so disrespectful
When I was with you my life was so stressful
Every little thing turned into an argument
We yelling till we don't even remember what started it
I wanted no part of it I had to move on
Pack my bags headed straight to Tucson
And with you gone that is room for laughing
Smiling, things I need to do more
Less thinking about what we could've been
And after all you've put me through,
I'll never be with you again

I keep forgetting to remember to forget
All the lies and all the bullshit
All the reasons that we had to call it quits
Pieces to our puzzle that never seemed to fit
Started out fast and ended so quick
For weeks on end I was so sick,
So the next time I start to reminisce
Remind me to remember to forget

I quit you, you can't quit me
I was the one that set you free
Oh I see you got somebody new
Do they know that you could never be true?
That they will never get to know the real you?
'Bout all the scandalous things you like to do?
Do they know you still call me and text me,
Run back to me whenever things get messy?
I suggest we continue on our separate paths
And quit telling me I'm the best you've ever had
I knew that then I know that now
But once you upgrade you can't go back down


I keep forgetting to remember to forget
All the lies and all the bullshit
All the reasons that we had to call it quits
Pieces to our puzzle that never seemed to fit
Started out fast and ended so quick
For weeks on end I was so sick,
So the next time I start to reminisce
Remind me to remember to forget

Remind me, remind me
Remind me, someone remind me,
Remind me, remind me,
Remind me, someone remind me,
Remind me, remind me,
Remind me someone remind me,
Remind me, remind me, remind me,
Some body remind me

I keep forgetting to remember to forget
All the lies and all the bullshit
All the reasons that we had to call it quits
Pieces to our puzzle that never seemed to fit
Started out fast and ended so quick
For weeks on end I was so sick,
So the next time I start to reminisce
Remind me to remember to forget

67 Cutlass

length: 3:24
In a 67 Cutlass we was riding through the desert with the

I got a story y'all, from a bit ago
I was out in AZ chilling with my ***** Ro'
We was zoning out
Couple dirty jokes, had the music up
A little smokey smoke, he was getting blue as ****
Stuff
Back in the day, you know, times was kinda rough
Way back, I was nowhere near my 30's
Rap wasn't paying the bills, we was riding dirty
Two pounds of brown weed, straight from [?]
We was riding slow, watching for the federals
Shoot, how can I forget, we had a half an ounce of shrooms

That's when the sheriff car came riding by
We wasn't speeding, he didn't have a reason
He still pulled us over, now I'm fearing for my freedom
"Oh ****! The shrooms! Hurry up and eat them"
He took half and I took half and threw the bag under the seat and uhm
"Hello officer, what will you be needing?
License, registration, I'm sure you wanna see em"
"Sir, we already know who you are
Mr. Carter could you please step out of the car?"

"Mr. Carter could you please open up the trunk?"
I said "Huh? Are you sure that's what you what?"

I went to the trunk, and opened it up
And from the look on his face I could tell that we were ****ed
Ronin jumped up
He said "Officer, that is not his weed"

Knocked the cop off his feet and grabbed his two piece
I stood for a second, thinking "Should I run with him?"
The cop stood up, I stuck my foot out and tripped him
He fell, and hit
Then he sunk to his knees and bled
He passed out, face covered in red
"Oh my God! Is he dead?"
And then he started he crying
No small feet, he wasn't a small guy
How he fit a pig in the trunk, hogtied

In a '67 cutlass we was riding through the desert
Looking for a place to bury this new treasure
Certified killers, small time drug traffickers
Won't be long till the helicopter's after us
We found a spot to dig us a ditch then
The chopper came out, and the shrooms kicked in
"Oh
Yo, Ro', you feel that **** man?"

Eazy-E

length: 5:01
And if I hit the switch I can make the a__ssss drop

[Verse 1:]
Growing up they said the west had no lyricists
Can you imagine growing up hearing this?
So I took my hip hop serious
Years later now the pen game is Furious
Styles from a Boy-N-The-Hood
Post G-Funk Era trying to do good
What about Quik, and Dub C
King Tee, Eiht, Kurupt and Suga Free?
They Master Ceremonies
And they Move Crowds
See, I'm from the west coast and I'm so proud
This where crack started and we act r_____ed
n____s be scrapping in the parking lot at Target
It's f___ed up, but it's kind of funny
And we be set tripping and it ain't over money
Red and blue is like Muslim and Jew
And I don't ever think they'll stop but I'm praying that they do
In '92 we had a truce for a little bit
Until they started back tripping over little s___
I was young making sense of this crazy world
And my childhood hero had a jheri curl

[Hook:]
When Eazy-E was playing on the radio
I knew exactly how my day would go
California sunshine coming in
Singing gangsta rap with all my friends
The origins of California hip hop
Where you can pop lock, or you can get shot
Black, white, latin, asian, living in this melting pot
Throw up your W and it don't stop

[Verse 2:]
My cousins up north that hit me to the game
It's all California, but we ain't all the same
To G's up there they had a different swag
They was grinding out the trunk getting hella cash
B-Legit man
E-40 dude
Del and Heiro got their start up under Cube
Love to my Bay Area fam
'93 Til Infinity is still the jam
And over 20 year later
They still rocking for the stoners and the skaters
I used to watch videos by Plan B
Dream about hitting up the Hubble Ledge or EMB
Shout out to Tommy B and Ray Barby
Cause there ain't no party like a Bay Party
When Mac Dre died, I was brokenhearted
Show some love to where the independent game started
The 6-1-9, shout out to Jay-O
Masters Of The Universe, doing it in DayGo
I came up on drive-bys and chronic smoke
And it was hella crazy, but it was kinda dope

[Hook:]
When Eazy-E was playing on the radio
I knew exactly how my day would go
California sunshine coming in
Singing gangsta rap with all my friends
The origins of California hip hop
Where you can pop lock, or you can get shot
Black, white, latin, asian, living in this melting pot
Throw up your W and it don't stop

[Verse 3:]
It goes 6 In The Morning, police at my door
Fresh Adidas squeak across the bathroom floor
Ice was telling stories about an inner city war
He gave the world a taste and they came back for more
They said "b____" and f___ Tha Police
They said they'd never make a million talking about the streets
They said they'd never play it on the radio
Now all you hear is gangsta rap everyday and yo
We m_________ing pioneers
All of that s___ started out right here
We didn't make it up but we made if famous
Then we spread it worldwide, go ahead and blame us
Growing up, gang culture taught us loyalty
And that everyone is equal, no royalty
So there's never been a king of the west coast
We got some OG's and we respect those
But anyone can get it if there's beef
And nobody's undefeated in the streets
I grew up on palm trees and gangsta rap
So pardon me, but I'm thankful for that
You know

Hip Hop & Love

length: 3:03
And I, and I, need to be with you tonight
Tell a broad get with me at the speed of light
Neo-soul flow, Jill-Scott overload
Tour bus, fifty cities, meet me on the road
PYT count max, on overload
Gorgeous girls all around, don't overdose
I need a real girlfriend, baby hope you know
We can make love all night, in slow mo'
You don't even know
Take it back to the hip hop Summer nights
Tribe Called Quest, MC Lyte
Put me on the mic
For the love of my heart, you could break-dance in the park
Need a b-girl with a killer arch
Play the lead role in my life, such a killer part
And if we ever grow apart, which is never
Cause' forever we will have hip hop
So let's rock

Hip hop and love
I remember the first time we hooked up
Can't remember the last time we broke up
Hip hop and love
I remember the first time we hooked up
Can't remember the last time we broke up

She the one, to my two-step
Perfect sixteen, that I ain't get to do yet
New J's, no hoody just a crew-neck
Then I got with you, when I knew that I was too fresh
She swag me the hell out
Knew Public Enemy ain't ever gonna' sell out
Cause what we got is priceless
Mary J, real love Spike couldn't write this
Watching brown sugar with the lights off
Used to sleep over on your nights off
Used to call me your sugar bear
Listening to 2Pac, you would let me pull your hair
Throwing that D'Angelo and slow up
The type of love to make a b-boy grow up
You know the type of love that never stops
So put this ring on your finger, baby girl, and let's rock

Hip hop and love
I remember the first time we hooked up
Can't remember the last time we broke up
Hip hop and love
I remember the first time we hooked up
Can't remember the last time we broke up

Used to listen to the Fugees The Score
Nowadays we don't talk no more
Before you hooked up with your new thing
We was bumpin' that Wu Tang
Blasting Outkast, and the Roots
Those were our favorite groups
I remember music we would listen to
When I'm reminiscing over you, my god, so let's rock

Hip hop and love
I remember the first time we hooked up
Can't remember the last time we broke up
Hip hop and love
I remember the first time we hooked up
Can't remember the last time we broke up

International

length: 4:05

Beijing to Seoul, Beirut to London
A red flag's hoisting to the skies
As if to say our time is coming
As if a sun's begun to rise
And can you hear the children singing
About a future fair for all
They'll live to see that red flag waving
They'll live to see this order fall
The old world dies in sheets of flame
Its banks destroyed, its streets on fire
And even stone is not written in stone
The world is made of our desire
With open eyes, and a sense of mission
We'll realise our dream some day
A universal recognition
Of justice, healthcare, equal pay
And can you hear the world insisting
A single song in every throat
On a new international system
For which they'll never let us vote
The old world dies in sheets of flame
Its banks destroyed, its streets on fire
And even stone is not written in stone
The world is made of our desire!

S-K-I-B-E-A-T-Z

length: 3:12
I refuse to let these clowns win at any cost
I'm here to take the crown back and then I'm off
Crown meaning king, every king needs a crown
But I'm here to take it all, not just the underground
The mainstream is full of lames with backpacks
Heads filled up with cocaine and wack raps
Producers sitting in bedrooms with sad tracks
I lost the hair but I'm still on that abstract
I think the unthought, I teach the untaught
I ain't preaching, I'm just getting to the fun part
My girl is dumb smart, you girl is cool to smash
She got a crazy body, but she a stupid ***
I had this air head, she could always get it up
She gave me good brain, because it was dumb luck
I got a wife now, I used to do my fans
But I'm bugging out, back to the music man

"S-K"
"I-B" - Shorty No Mass on De La Soul's "I Be"
"E-A"
"T" - Ice-T
"Z" - Eazy-E 'We Want Eazy'

Rap is easy
Career is the hard part
*****s starting out this year and thing they Mozart
I'm on that positive, get a lot of money quick
Rock-the-***-gangbanging-backpacking-Crip-****
Building with the Gods, love from the Bloods
Red, gold, green but I don't smoke bud
Never been a thug, I'm a man before anything
Getting my respect now, but I always been a king
Dodger blue brown on, putting Mid-Town on
Revenge Of The Nerds, D-Boyz getting clowned on
Back to the hood to buy the block, that's the plan
But that's a little later, back to the music man

"S-K"
"I-B" - Shorty No Mass on De La Soul's "I Be"
"E-A"
"T" - Ice-T
"Z" - Eazy-E 'We Want Eazy'

Yo, highly unlikely to find me begging for people's acceptance so they don't like me
And I ain't looking for labels to over hype me
Despite these slight haters that wanna spite me
And play me out like Phife, I don't have Type B
Diabetes or Sickle Cell my lyrics swell
Piercing through your veins like sugar cane, sniff or smell
This is jail for free thinkers that think free
This is Heaven for silly rappers that mimic me
Remember me like Kato
I.M.G.M.I Ski Beatz and Murs
We run the Earth like NATO
I know you hate it bro
And yeah I sympathize
And I ain't stopping until you ************s recognize

"S-K"
"I-B" - Shorty No Mass on De La Soul's "I Be"
"E-A"
"T" - Ice-T
"Z" - Eazy-E 'We Want Eazy'

Westside Love

length: 4:02

[Verse One]:
Real cute, spending loot, Fairfax
5'2, baby blue Air Max
Hair pulled back, nails did up
I said, "Call me anytime you wanna get..huh"
Up north got a chick from Humbolt
White girl, dreadlocks with the good smoke
Got caught, went to jail trying to sell dope
Police asked me if I knew her I said, "Hell no"
Had a lawyer broad, she kept me out of trouble
Cute face, brief case with a nice bubble
Seattle girl, get to snuggle with on rainy days
Had to leave, hadn't seen the sun in 80 days
So I made my way up to Van City
Sweated at the boarder, but the girls are so damn pretty
Really
There's beauty everywhere you go
But I found my love in the 5-2-O

[Hook]:
And you could be my west side love
Together we gone show them how the west side does
Back when we was popping that's the best I was
Come on and let's show them about the west side cuz, uh
You could be my west side love
Together we gone show them how the west side does
Back when we was popping that's the best I was
Come on and let's show them about the west side blood

[Verse Two]:
One chick from Oakland, she down for business
The other one from Frisco, they always set tripping
She like the 9er's the other like the Raiders
It's all about the Dodgers so I told them both "Later"
In the 5-O-3, they always go nuts
I had this crazy broad put voodoo on my donuts
At El Cholo, I met this chicana chick
Short hair, named Bianca she was kinda thick
Couldn't deal with the brown and black politicking
She cut me off before her homeboys started tripping
I got a gangster chick, she's from the projects
Always wear a bandanna anytime we have sex
Punched my ex in the face and through up a gang sign
Some of y'all think I'm playing but I ain't lying
We broke up, she got back with her baby dad
But I still got love for her crazy ass

[Hook]:
And you could be my west side love
Together we gone show them how the west side does
Back when we was popping that's the best I was
Come on and let's show them about the west side cuz, uh
You could be my west side love
Together we gone show them how the west side does
Back when we was popping that's the best I was
Come on and let's show them about the west side blood

[Verse Three]:
East coast, west side Manhattan
Upscale, her fingernails platinum
Sex In The City, drinking cosmos and everything
Smoking cigarettes going hard for her wedding ring
Any size and shape around the world
Bonita Applebums or Around The Way girls
I love you all
You're so damn attractive
And if you need them I got crazy prophylactics

[Outro] [Murs speaking]:
Ha ha. I want to show love to-to-to really all the ladies (all of y'all) around the world, know what I'm saying (I love you)? Especially all up and down the west coast (west side). Out to 8-0-8 to far west coast all the Hawaiian, beautiful women (what up?). You know, fuck it. All the-all the beautiful girls everywhere (all of y'all. Every single one of y'all). If you're not from the west side (don't worry about it), don't worry, you know what I'm saying? Let one of the west coast niggas swag you the fuck out. We'll converse you baby. To all the esse homies, all the Blood homies, all the Crip homies. And once again, for all of y'all not from the west side, don't trip. Esse, esse, means 'friend' (It just means 'friend'. That's all). Ski Beatz (yeah). Old Weird Harold on the keys. And fuck D-Rich (ha ha). I'm out

[Hook]:
You could be my west side love
Together we gone show them how the west side does
Back when we was popping that's the best I was
Come on and let's show them about the west side cuz, uh
You could be my west side love
Together we gone show them how the west side does
Back when we was popping that's the best I was
Come on and let's show them about the west side blood

Life & Time

length: 3:03
No chain, tattoos where you can't see
I'm the one, I'm the man that you can't be
Decade and plus in the game, I got a name
While a lot of these commercial *** rappers should be ashamed
Sold your soul for that 15 minutes
You was in, you was on, you was hot, now you finished
I represent the real hip-hop
For my homies that still sell pills and load Glocks
I told them young dudes clean your money up
There's a recession and it's the perfect time for comin up!
You can listen to these rappers if you're dumb enough
Or smile, get money, have fun, be one of us
Why you acting tough for?
Wouldn't throw a cream-puff in a cupcake war
It's not real, it's all what you make it
All you got is your word and you're ****ed once you break it

Life is a myth and time is an illusion
I'm a light shining through the confusion
We sell frequencies designed as music
All I do is kick rhymes, have fun, and do cool ****

If it wasn't for this hip-hop ish, I'd probably lose it
The real thinker: don't confuse me with Confucius
Cut on your blinker, get it right, I'm the prototype
I spit like I mix chemicals in beakers
Way before I heard my words thumping out a speaker
I knew I was too cool to play follow the leader
Everything I do goes over the head of overachievers
We can discuss this over lunch, it's over when I dump my thesis
****in' punks, runch of *****es: y'all should wear pumps
Square up, run to Orange County for a "fair" one
I'm out your frequency, don't speak to me
Reason be I'm like a deity, I'm the elite
MURS: bow our heads, bon apetit
Let's turn Paid Dues into Coachella and have a feast!
This rap game is full of lames driving themselves insane
Looking for a lane, mayne

Life is a myth and time is an illusion
I'm a light shining through the confusion
We sell frequencies designed as music
All I do is kick rhymes, have fun, and do cool ****

This is grown-man talk
Head up high with pride is how I walk. Take notes from the source
It's ? analog and the 2-inch ?
You had to show and prove the skill to cop you a deal
Co-signs was void, shortcuts didn't exist
You had to go hard in the paint to score
Testing time to separate the weak from those
Who had abilities to transcend beats in other words, yo
You had rappers, and then you had emcees
? Melly Mel G Rap and O.C
Busy B, Starsky, Old Varsity
Sideways talk nowadays: larceny
Fast forward, present time, now it's something called 360 deal
Idiots ask where do I sign?
Bend over! Face down, gettin **** from behind
I'm shaking my head thinking you out your cotton-picking mind!

Life is a myth and time is an illusion
I'm a light shining through the confusion
We sell frequencies designed as music
All I do is kick rhymes, have fun, and do cool ****

Reach Hire

length: 3:14

Dream On

length: 3:51

[Intro:Murs]
If you ain't dreamin', what you doing?

[Verse 1: Murs]
I dreamt of this day ever since I was a small child
And when it finally came the sky was filled with rain clouds
But when she came out, it all cleared up
That's when his boy became a man and put his fears up
I teared up as we started to say our vows
No more "me", it's all about "us" now
And the children we bring into this union
Never thought I'd live to see my dreams come true, man

[Verse 2: Dee-1]
Look, all I know is marriage, pops and moms did it
Grandparents did it, both stayed committed
At least I think so, but I can't go a day without dreaming
Of seeing myself married to Hip-Hop without a queen
And I refuse to be that old, lonely dude at home watching porn
Forty plus lurkin' around the college dorms
And uh, speaking of kids, I got a kid on the way
Nah I'm kidding but I dream to have 2 one day
Yeah

[Hook]
What's a dream without a dreamchaser chasin' it
And what's a fear if you have no fear of facin' it
It's not a dream once reality replaces it
So dream on, dream on
What's a dream without a dreamchaser chasin' it
And what's a fear if you have no fear of facin' it
It's not a dream once reality replaces it
So dream on, dream on

[Verse 3: Murs]
I've never been that dude that was dreamin' about the limelight
I just wanted to have fun and keep my rhymes tight
And then the fame came, now I'm a big name
I opened up my heart, and started spittin' game
So influential, helping you reach your potential
I hit the booth and touch truth to the instrumental
But really, what does it all mean
If you can't help others to fulfill their dreams

[Verse 4: Dee-1]
New Orleans is moated murder and mardi gra
Ima' show em'
Through the verses I'm flowin' through the seas that I'm sowing
Showin', provin' and doublin' to excel is just the beginning
Picture me rockin' stadiums, going platinum we winnin'
I lead an army of solders and beautiful, brilliant women
To dream as big as I do and expose the people pretending
Ha, they ain't real man
They're just real lost
It's hard times but these cowards still soft

[Hook]

[Verse 5: Dee-1]
Look, I dream I please God everyday that I'm alive
I dream that even when I'm gone my music never dies
I hate when I backslide, I pray I change that
My dreams and God's purpose
I hope they're on the same track
And I remember way back in '06
With that gun on my head, man I thought I was dead
Speaking of dead, a man's not alive just because he's breathin'
No purpose equals no freedom
Rise up

[Verse 6: Murs]
I had a dream that God looked like me
Clarence, 13 exit I was G-O-D
Can I admit, that kinda went to my head
But really who is God if he can't bring back the dead
With that said, in my dreams we live forever
No divisions of religion because we all in this together
Wake up, cause death is closer than it seems
And too many of us die before we try to live our dreams

316 Ways

length: 4:08
The industry is dead, long live the king
Drop from a head shot, and it didn't feel a thing
Woke up this morning with the world in my hand
Money in my pocket, fly girl on your man
On the other hand, I could never waste time
I'm a everyday victim of a random hate crime
It's a scandalous game when you handle in vain
Every amateur and lame wanna slander your name
Fake love, fake hugs, fake thugs, fake blood
They turn around and sell it to the public like they answers
I'm just so appalled, especially now I got as much dough as y'all
And I ain't never had to kill nobody, never had to sell coke
Spend it while you can, 'cause we all go to hell broke
This morning had the world in my hands
So I gave it to the meek but y'all wouldn't understand

[Chorus]
I got an army of the righteous to defend me
God on our side, so we pray for the enemy
316, 316, 316 ways to kill the industry
Got an army of the righteous to defend me
God on our side, so we pray for the enemy
316, 316, 316 ways to kill the industry

316 ways to kill a hater dead
Thou shall not kill, so I let 'em motivate instead
Two commandments, die and pay taxes
Fight to stay righteous while I'm living in this bracket
Crooks in the castles, profits in the projects
Black man president, still the world's a hot mess
So God bless everybody trying to do right
Shock G bless me, I'ma do what I like like
Walk on water, swag on holy
Microphone blessed by the based god homie
And Ski cooked up this heater
Rising to the top over all these bottom feeders
I don't follow, I'm the leader
I write that og, you could keep the retweeters
So the script's authentic
Hip-Hop needed love, so I put some God in it

[Chorus]

And I never fired one shot
Ain't no higher power than the one that I got
No napalm necessary, the rap game's now a cemetery
And I'm dancin' on your grave
You was born a free man, but died a industry slave
These 360 deals is craze
They call it 360 'cause you trapped in a maze
And I'm amazed by the ignorance
Money made y'all a bunch of million dollar idiots
You still spending money on jewels
I took my money out to Africa to build more schools
And still got enough to take a cruise with my lady friend
Pull up to your spot in a drop-top Mercedes Benz
You see you give then you get back
But I'ma be dead before you lames ever live that

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Fresh outta high school
Glad cus he hated it
Everybody in the senior class would call him gay but it
It never bothered him
His name Jonathon
Best friend Julie she was cool she went to Prom with him
The principle said prom was no place for a queer couple
If he showed up with a boy then there'd be real trouble
Empty threats
But what really got to him is that his boyfriend didn't wanna go to prom with him
Boyfriend Roderick kept his secret closeted
Scared to come out into this world of zero tolerance
Kinda popular
Played a lot of politics
Jonathon was book smart
Just received a scholarship
Off to college
Wanted Roderick to follow him
He see him in the halls but Rod would never acknowledge him
Away from school though he was so affectionate
Jon had a good thing, no use in upsetting it
Besides at college everything would be different
Everyone is educated no one would be trippin
He had it all figured out plus his parents were excited just to get him out the house
So they bought him a ticket
Even bought one for Roderick
Said to leave the end of summer they would pay for all of it
So excited on his way to work at In-N-Out
End of the shift he drove straight up to Roderick's house
He hopped out
Saw him with his crew
He walked right up
He was ready to share the news
It had been a few days
He forgot how much he missed him
So exited that he moved in and kissed him
Roderick dissed him
Threw him to the floor
Said, "You f__got what you have to go and do that for? "
Looked at his homies, "Ya'll know I'm not gay"
They just shook their heads
Turned and walked away
("f___. f___s wrong with you? ")
Now he's screaming at Jonathon
"What the hell is wrong with him? "
"Ok it's over then let's be honest then.
They never knew the real you they're not your real friends."
He drove away and vowed to never speak to him again
It had been a few weeks
Before Jon left to college
He thought that they should speak
Scared to do it for fear of rejection
But either way he knew the world would never accept them
(Dear America, When you tell gay Americans that they cannot serve their country openly or marry the person that they love, you're telling that to kids too)
Roderick was seventeen
In n out of jail since ten
Never knew his father
Or spent time with any other men
He started runnin in them circles with the hustlers
Gang bangin' dope slingin'
Had some loyal customers
Locked him up at a very young age
Found religion and it ended all his criminal ways
He also found his first boyfriend when he was locked up
Came home conflicted
So he really didn't talk much
The beginnings of a double life
The chaplain back in juvie used to tell him that it wasn't right
His bond with God was so strong it was until he met Jon
And it felt so perfect
But suffering eternal d___ation,
Was it worth it?
He still had to see him it had been two years
He knew that he could never leave him
So he lived in fear of God's wrath
The preacher said God loves us all except f__s
That made him so mad he started packing his bags
Said he's run away with Jon until it went bad
("Like, did you know, did you hear about him? I mean like, Jonathon, he's my friend, he's my gay best friend, of course, but like, Roderick? I f___ing kissed him. He tried to f___ me! What the f___? I hope I don't have anything. Should I go get tested? What a f___ing f__got. I f___ing hate that piece of s___ f__got. What a f___ing b____. f___ing c___. I f___ing hate him.")
The big incident
Jon slipped in front of his friends and started kissing him
Now everything was different
He shut him out
Never thought about forgiving him
Until he got that text
Jon wanted to meet up the day after next
They met at In-N-Out
On his dinner break but he was so mad he couldn't look him in the face
Soon as he spoke they both started crying
Said he missed him so much it felt like he was dying
Jon said, "I can't describe how much I missed you"
That's when Roderick pulled his pistol
Shot him right between the eyes
Then turned it on himself cus he refused to live a lie
Suicide was against his beliefs but he knew it was the only way they'd ever find peace